Golly.......gee whiz!

I was in a good mood today.

Seriously. I was happy and all, for several hours.

There was no reason for this good mood, I was just in it. It felt very good. Like sex without the mess, a nice juicy steak without the bloat, like strawberries with real whipped cream. It was 'lie down like a cat and just roll around in the sun' good. It was....like being a kid 'without a worry in the world' good.

It was just damn good.

Makes you wish that it could be bottled up and taken once a day. Come to think of it, it did remind me of being....er...smoked, but without the paranoia. Oh yes, those were the days.

I wish that I knew why I was in such a good mood. I'd do whatever it was all over again...and again...and again! I do think part of it was that I got out in the sun, was driving around with the windows down and just enjoying being alive. I was just being a good ole girl....and it helped that traffic wasn't being a pain in the arse.

There is also the fact that I am back in touch with an old buddy of mine...and he was all complimentary towards me. I have to learn to accept compliments, but its damn hard, even if it does take some work. Plus, he's actually, like the one person who actually understands my heart of darkness as he has one as well. I don't have to pretend to be like everyone else with him.

That could be it. I got to relax and just be me, the sick, twisted bitch that I am. Normals should thank goodness that there are laws in this country. Does make me wish there was a job market for what I am though. One should enjoy their work. Does the guy who does the canings in what ever country uses caning as punishment, whistle when he goes in to work? Does he wonder why they pay him for having a good time? I wish I could talk to them...learn, figure out what his mind set is.

Shit, I should be quiet now, darkness is seeping out.....don't want to scare you all.

Not too much anyway.

heh heh....