Not another Bush!!!!! Arghhhhhh

ORLANDO, Fla. - Could there be a third President Bush? The current chief said Wednesday that younger brother Jeb would make a great one, too, and has asked him about making a run. The first President Bush likes the idea as well. Jeb Bush, the Republican governor of Florida, has one asset that his presidential brother doesn't right now � approval from most of his constituents. While George W. Bush's approval ratings are in the low 30s, some 55 percent of Florida voters surveyed last month by Quinnipiac University said Jeb was doing a good job.

GEEZUS PLEEEAASEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not another one!

I read this via yahoo/reuters news and for about 2 minutes my jaw had a workout from where it was hitting the floor and bouncing back up.

I'm flabbergasted, I'm stunned......I'm scared that it might actually happen. Now....Jeb sez he ain't gonna run. No one believes him. I can't say he might be good or not, but....yanno....all the fellow needs is a mullet and he'd be someone's redneck cousin.

No, he does this...and I will hope that the American Indian population begin the task of taking over the country. Invoke our immigration laws....etc.

Geezus.....please, not another Bush.

'nuff please!

A bit more of things, a bit about me

There is so much to write about that I can't say a word about. I will say this; It must be spring because everyone is running around trying to mate with anything with a hole.

Geezus holy cow.... Someone slip some saltpeter into the water supply.

I'm on a number of bdsm egroups related to Indiana. What a happy bunch of people they all are. One of them is just going nuts with some loyalty issues.....they are just about to 'rule' themselves to death. Another one is just too .... tight knit for me. I'm not part of the crowd, nor do I wish to be, but I'm so not interested in being posted to death about their kids, their life, or the zit on their face and to please pray for them. I don't care. Don't tell me about it. I'm not interested in cutesy posts, humourous joke posts, forwards, warning about urban legends, patriotism bs...etc. Sending emails to groups isn't going to help bring the soldiers home....save their lives or anything else. Want them home? Email the president fercrissakes. Email or call your congressman, your governor, someone who CAN make a difference, but for gawdsake, don't email me because I can't do a damned thing.

Oh ya...when they get on these lists and just chit chat...like they are talking in a room, why don't they have the common sense to frigging take it offlist so the rest of us don't have to puke while reading it? Usually, I delete it. I use google mail (gmail) for list mail......they let you see just enough of the post that you can make an informed decision to delete the post or not.

ya...I love my gmail. Hits the 'spot'. :)

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I thought I might address this as I know some people actually read this pitiful blog now and then.

I do not like to be touched.

Really. As odd as it sounds, I do not like to be hugged or touched anywhere when I don't know the person, where I think none too highly of that person or in a crowded area. Even my 'boys' that I see.....they never touch me unless I first extend a hand or foot..etc. I decide to touch someone: they do not touch me. I don't feel slighted when everyone around me is hugging each other. It makes me happy to see them so comfortable. I don't care that 'well, we just hug everyone around here!" Oh no you don't....get away from me.

You would never believe I was raised Southern would you? Southerns are huggers. They shake your hand and then pull you in for a swift hug. Good gawd but that used to drive me nearly mad. Not so bad if they were in long sleeves or something, but I hate the touch of bare skin on mine.

Now you are wondering how I managed to have sex. Well darlings, that wasn't an issue! And that is ALL you need to know about that! Oh yea..and that it was always only 'nilla men.

Ok, touching. I have touched too many people that made my skin crawl from the impressions I would get off of them. Not that they were bad people.....but something about them would make my skin crawl even before they would extend a hand. Now... when I shake hands, I've mentally prepared beforehand. Not that I know a lot of people that are creepy crawly. I know one like that...and I avoid him as best I can. Now, I just smile and nod in greeting. It's still good manners. Look at the Japanese!

Yeah, I know....I sound whacked in the head.

tough,

Now you know why sometimes, I won't voluntarily touch someone. Its not them, its my mindset.

A bit of Buddha's wisdom

Ajita asked: "What is it that smothers the world and makes it so hard to see? What is it that pollutes the world and seems to threaten it?"

The Buddha answered: "It is ignorance that smothers, and it is carelessness and greed that make it invisible. The hunger of craving pollutes the world, and the pain of suffering causes the greatest fear."

-Sutta Nipata

On being adult....

Someone once told me that my little home play parties were considered very extreme.

wha, wha, wha!?!

I was flabbergasted by the idea that someone would consider my little soirees 'extreme'. It is seldom that I play. The others play and I never see anything that I would consider outside of too much and that couldn't be done in a more public arena.

Ok, aside from the sometimes total nudity of some players. Fortunately, the people who come here don't ogle naked subbies like they have never seen a body before. I would be mortified if I had a guest make a big deal out of someone's nudity.

A friend of mine told me about an incident (one of many) that happened at a play party in the a city in the northeast corner of Indiana. She was all comfy, the dominant she was in a scene with was doing knife play. He's very focused on what he's doing so that he doesn't nick her. She's just enjoying things. Well, the area is open for other to watch when some loud mouth jackass watching says, "Oh how disgusting!" That totally ruined things for the sub who was made to feel ugly.

I want to know who that moron was so bad I can barely stand it. I'm not into scat, but I want to rip off their head and shit down their neck.....yea..how is that for disgusting? How's about a little scat for that loud mouth moron?

Nothing was done about that incident. That I know of, that is.

There was another little incident that happened, but that's not my story to tell...though I wish I could. Talk about a loud mouth moron.....but hey, if someone wants to feel all big and important....he certainly found himself a nice little pond to do it in. *snort*

So, yeah, I can count on my guests here to be adult. Bless all yer perverted little hearts.

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No one has ever asked me about party rules for play at the house. They are simple enough.

• 1. Use common sense. Easy enough when yer adult.
• 2. Don't make assumptions. Makes an ASS out of U and ME. Clever eh?
• 3. NEVER interrupt a scene. If you think something is unsafe, check with the DM (me)
• 4. Don't touch anyone, their equipment or belongings without permission. Half the time if you want to use something...someone is already handing you some sort of implement.
• 5. No cameras or recording devices allow. UNLESS its been discussed beforehand.
• 6. Be polite to everyone. I know yer mama taught you some sort of manners.
• 7. Play sober OR I will ask you to leave.
• 8. Smoking areas will be designated. Two rooms are not to be smoked in....you know which ones they are.
• 9. We are in a residential area so have some sort of covering should you have to go outside. Can't scare the 'nillas, yanno.
• 10. No penetration. Unless you don't mind us all watching...and we will watch. Gods, we are such pervs....
• 11. RED will be the "default" safe word unless you have discussed it with the one you are scening with. Some people like to use something specific.
• 12. Respect scene area. It's small, or one area is...so please limit screaming. Use your inside screaming voice. Please remember to spray the area with disinfectant when you are finished with the scene area.
• 13. If there is a messy scene, use a drop cloth. No scat or water sports. We have a bathroom for that stuff.
• 14. DM (who will be me and one other person) will have final word on everything, including the right to stop an unsafe scene. Heavy play is permitted provided the DMs is notified.

You don't want to scare the DMs into having a tizzy now do ya?

Simple enuff, yes? Good.

The fear of god......

Radical christians are scary.

No, they are terrifying.

Now, before you get the pitchforks and torchs...let me say that I like god. I think a lot of god and his works and believe it or not...we sometimes have lengthy talks.

Ok, I talk, god listens. Which sort of shakes my image of god as male figure because what man ever really listens to a woman? hmmmm?

I've been reading things on the net....like the church in kansas that sends its people out to protect at soldier funerals that god hates us for this and that. Or there is the catholics taking on South Park because they said something about Jesus's mama.

You got religion as lobbyists now...slowly but surely removing things that the forefathers....uncannily smart men, put in there to INSURE separation of church and state.

Separation of CHURCH and STATE. That means, religion should NOT be a part of the running of this country. This is enough to make me want to run for office. But, it could be like that owner of strip bars who wants to run for either city council or school board.....his neighbours are having kittens. But the guy is a family man.....who cares for his community. So he's not a lily white moralist. Who is anymore? I bet some of those fine people railing about him get blow jobs and have had sex anally. They better stay away from Indiana.

I want the church out of my house, out of my personal business and for damn sure, I want them OUT of my womb. Unless he's a GYN, there is not a damn thing the pope or the preacher down the street knows about my body. So out...out out out!

They are as invasive as the government!

The government....are as scary as the radical christians. Actually, they are interchangable.

You have people with little law background making up laws that will get them reelected by church people.

I live in Indiana. Indiana law: " IC 35-41-1-9 “Deviate sexual conduct means an act involving 1) a sex organ of one person and the mouth or anus of another person; or 2) the penetration of the sex organ or anus of a person by an object.”

In other words, if it involves blow jobs, butts or batteries, it’s “deviate” sexual conduct here in Indiana." It doesn't matter if this is behind closed doors or not.

So, where are they going to put all those law makers, kids, moms, dads.......shit...practically everyone in the state? We will have the worse overcrowding of jails in the US....not to mention...who will be left to lock everyone up?

I know Bill Clinton better not drop by this state.

Please check out this link, because, I ain't making this stuff up.

http://www.nuvo.net/archive/2006/02/15/sex_and_the_statehouse.html

Now a word from the Immortal Bard

That god forbid that made me first your slave,
I should in thought control your times of pleasure,
Or at your hand the account of hours to crave,
Being your vassal, bound to stay your leisure!
O, let me suffer, being at your beck,
The imprison'd absence of your liberty;
And patience, tame to sufferance, bide each cheque,
Without accusing you of injury.
Be where you list, your charter is so strong
That you yourself may privilege your time
To what you will; to you it doth belong
Yourself to pardon of self-doing crime.
I am to wait, though waiting so be hell;
Not blame your pleasure, be it ill or well

What the H E L L??????

Geezus people....

First, we got all this bs over video games and their contents. We have the religious right and left letting us know that they find certain segments of society objectionable and so they can not let us be.....and we got the government saying they need to big brother us so that they can protect us from terrorist.

Right now, I'm more afraid of the people in my country than I am of some towel wearing terrorist. At least the towelheads are honest about it.

Video games.....they are made by big kids for other big kids. You don't like what it has in it...then damnit, don't buy for your fricking brat. Don't let him or her rent it, don't allow his or her friends to bring it in your home and if s/he plays at their friends house, well, talk to that parent or don't allow your kid to go over anymore. HOW hard is that? Don't penalize the game makers for what they do, control your kid, control your house! Who is running it? You or the kid?
Its like anything else out there, you don't want your kid to see it....then keep an eye on yer kid. S/He does something wrong, its not the fault of anyone else but them.....and you. When they are 18, then, they can do as they please as long as they aren't in your home. That's the way I see it.

I don't like religion telling me what I can or can't see on tv, read in a book, think about in my head or vote in my country's election. They are forgetting that a growing population isn't even christian. I don't like christian views, morals being applied as a 'matter of fact'. This is not to say that I don't dislike christian morals. They are roughly the same sort of morals that the rest of the world has been using a lot longer than 2 thousand years. But don't assume I'm going to follow along meekly like some sort of lamb. Lambs get eaten. Don't you ever forget that. What we have are a lot of wolves in sheeps clothing leading these little lambs of god.

I don't like old men telling me what I can or can't do with my womb. I don't like christian religion in my womb. WHY doesn't anyone understand that? If there is a man near my womb, he better be making a desposit. Keep the US government out of my vagina! Sheesh

Rant over.

'nuff said

Feds After Google Data

From SiliconValley.com:

The Department of Justice on Wednesday asked a federal judge to order Google to comply with a subpoena issued last year for search records stored in its databases. The DOJ argues that the information it has requested, which includes one million random Web addresses and records of all Google searches from a one-week period, is essential to its upcoming defense of the constitutionality of the Child Online Protection Act (think of the children!). Google has so far refused to comply with the subpoena, saying the release of such information would violate the privacy of its users. "Google is not a party to this lawsuit, and the demand for the information is overreaching,'' Nicole Wong, an associate general counsel for Google, told The Mercury News. "[We plan to fight the government's effort] "vigorously.''

Here's hoping the company prevails. The release of such records sets a truly unsettling precedent. And if the goverment's claim that other, unspecified search engines have already agreed to release similar information proves true, we have already lost our footing on a very slippery, very dangerous slope. Said privacy advocate Lauren Weinstein, "It's interesting and disappointing that other search engines would provide this material. It's what we've been worried about all along. The fact that Google is refusing the subpoena...my initial reaction is three cheers for Google. But there is a sidebar to this. Part of the reason these problems come up is because this data is being retained in the first place.''

Scary stuff people. With George W trying to listen in on everything we are slowly but surely losing personal freedoms left and right. We can fight it...but eventually I think this is one we are going to lose.

'nuff said

when a hug means so much........

I was a bad daughter.

I didn't intend to be. We won't discuss my teen years...that is just too painful to remember.
It is just that after we survived that.....and her menopause, things never seemed to get too much better.

I do remember being broke a lot...this was after the divorce and the family had all drifted away. Parents actually sort of went to pieces. Nothing ever seemed to go right. I did like the guys she dated though...I just adored one named 'Dave'. I wish that had worked out. Things might be so different. There was this other one too that was ok....he would have been good for her.

Better than one rotten selfish child.

I could have done so much more for her. I should have done more. If nothing else I could have been nicer. I remember one time she gave me some earrings. They were dangly, the type I liked. I can't remember if I liked those or not....though I think I did. She handed them to me and her whole attitude said...'apologetic', like they weren't good enough to give me. I could have hugged her...I could have made her happy by just giving her a gawddamn hug in appreciation.

I said they were great or something lame like that.

I lived then, in the south. Southerners are big on hugging. I can't bear to touch people. I will not give a hug though it takes something out of me to accept them. Sometimes, I can prepare for them and that works out ok.

I don't know why I'm like that. It is only with people that I have touched first that I will sometimes allow a spontantous gesture like a touch to not freak me out.

I was thinking about my mother tonight. I was looking at some earrings online and some I saw were in the style that my mother would sometimes give me. I turned onion eyed and well...I thought about it....and what I could have done to have made her life, if not easier....a little more happy...knowing that I loved her.
Which I did...and she knew I did...but there was just this thing about hugging.

God I miss my mother. I wish I could just hug her one more time. Please.

Political ethics........(ain't that an oxymoron....)

Ok, normally I don't post political bs.....ok, maybe once.

But this....this...is unfrigginbelievable.....

I ain't stopped laughing since.....

http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/nationworld/chi-060117lobby,1,5173996.story?coll=chi-news-hed&ctrack=1&cset=true

this.....that....

As I sit here, I'm trying to type with my cat draped across both arms. His big fat tomcat head is resting on my left arm and his tail is actually draped across the right arm. He's snoring. I can only hope that I am not disturbing him.

I'm not sure why he does this. He'll stay like this for a while, then jump up and run off. Then he'll come back again....lie down on the mouse, throw his tail in my face and then lie down between my arms again. Someone know anything about cat behaviour?

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I live in Kokomo, Indiana. There was recently here, an article in the 2 community newspapers about a zoning issue. A local couple in the lifestyle are about to open a dungeon. They have this big wonderful building that I am certain the local zoning commission is going to be trying to make sure is never open. Already there are people screaming about children, and family values, prostitutions.....welp, you know the drill. Everyone who thinks that the world should go back to the values of the 50's is speaking out on this.

What's a little perversion amongst friends? Its not a swingers club. No one is serving booze, no one with drugs will be allowed in....and it's a damn sight healthier then what goes on at bars and strip clubs. You'll mostly have middle aged people with a bit of flesh on them, spanking, paddling.....flogging each other. For some, it's a fantasy. For others its just a different part of their lifestyle.

I'd say more on this, but what we all do is what WE think of it....doesn't matter if its just a fantasy or a way of life. Its not wrong.

'nuff said

Ahhh yes, the stories, they keep on coming...

Little tales are coming out of the woodwork from various parts of the state....mostly the cental and north eastern sections.

Is someone trying to stir the shit pot? Is someone whispering in the ears of people here and there, little tidbits designed to cause harsh feelings? Rumours can not stand the light of truth. If you lot want to stop the rumours.....be willing to name names.

I hear my name is being bandied about again. If that person reads my blog....know this. I will find out who you are, you stupid twat and will deal with you as you deserve, you pathetic cunt.

This is an OLD story I heard of a Domina who damaged a sub belonging to a particular group in Indy. Seems there was some kidney damage from what she did. I wonder if she slunk away never to come out again. I wonder if the damage was temporary. I wonder if any of the participants learned anything?

GeezusHCrist....are you people clueless?

This makes me so angry I can't even think. I wish you all has one ass so I could beat it.

sheesh......

Cat bathing as a martial art.....

One of the things they teach you in martial arts is not to take your eyes off your opponent.

If your cat is your opponent...never take your eyes off the cat...and NEVER remove your hand no matter how calm he seems to be.

I didn't know cats could levitate.

Jake can.

I have a few new scars...nothing that won't eventually heal.

But Jake's attitude....after awhile....after he got most of the water off of him. He came up to where I was typing and curled up in his spot. He's been very cuddly since his bath. Its like he's saying he'll be good if I don't try to drown him again.

Poor guy. He's pulling out his fur and I'm not sure if it from fleas...which are now all drown or from something else. He was fine last year. But last year, he still had his 'manhood'. This year, what is different is that he's been neutered. Not sure if that had anything to do with it.

We are both recovering now.....

Submission is a gift, not a right....

If you don't know what I mean by that statement....then you shouldn't be in this lifestyle.

'nuff said.

A new year's resolution....

At the beginning of every new year, some of us make resolutions that we never follow up on or have no intentions of keeping anyway.

I have one that I simply need do one simple thing.

Be polite.

I've noticed that todays children have horrible manners. To be sure, most of them have the basics, but lets say....inner city kids, rich kids, kids raised in barns have the manners of a gnat. Why is this? Where did the basic politeness go to?

Parents. Parents do have the manners. They simply aren't passing many of them on to their spawn. Perhaps they felt that what they were taught was too restrictive in some way and this is their way of rebelling.

Bah.

Manners enable one to function in everyday life. It enables all of us to treat everyone equally no matter what our station in life is. Is simple yes? There is no need to look at someone who serves you, say like a waiter, gas station attendent or who ever else who works in hospitality as someone lower than you. Be polite. It pays. Sometimes it even gives bonuses. If you are rude, then damnit, you deserve what you are dealt. It costs you nothing to be polite. A thank you, or a please brings instant response where as a command (unless you are in the military) will get you slower service and a surly waiter...or customer service representive.

Polite manners show what type of person you really are.

Are you classy or no count?

'nuff said

Tis the season to be.....

Ain't he just the cutest thing? I had to retire the thing on my keyring I had been carrying around with me for like....good god...nearly 20 yrs.
Wow.
I'm sure this little fellow will be the cause of some whispers and looks.......

Jake wasn't left out this holiday season..... Aside from all the ham he could eat.... Master Jake also enjoys his new toy guaranteed to drive me nuts from all the swishy noises that it makes!

You can't see from the photo he sort of lazily sticks his paw in the open side and pushs the ball around. He also sticks his tail in, his back paws and the blankies he's lying on. He'll grab onto the thing and just gnaw on it while pushing his back legs against it...... I'm not sure what he's trying to do, but it sure makes me laugh when I catch him at it.

How lucky am I that I have friends that know exactly what I like....and that I'm happy that the animals in my life are happy.

I'm damn lucky in my opinion......

Police raid home, seize B&D videos!

CONNECTICUT NEWS

Police Seize Woman's ComputersDecember 16, 2005 By KEN BYRON, Courant Staff Writer

ENFIELD -- Police are investigating a local woman who produced bondage and domination videos at her home and then sold memberships to customers who watched them on her website.Deputy Chief Carl Sferrazza said the Montano Road house was searched in November and that no charges have been filed against the woman, Michelle Silva. He would not say what kind of criminal activity is being investigated.
Sferrazza said investigators seized computers along with a number of other items, which he would not specify.He said police started investigating Silva early this year after neighbors complained of suspicious activity that included lots of traffic and people often coming to the house at night. Sferrazza said neighbors also saw a number of cars with out-of-state license plates.
The computers are being examined at state police forensic computer lab. Sferrazza said the outcome of that examination will determine what police do next. Silva said she obeyed all local and state laws in running the website and said the search violated her rights. "I'm upset and I'm confused," she said about the investigation.
Silva said customers bought memberships through her website, on which she calls herself Empress M, that let them watch bondage and domination videos on the site. She said she produced all the videos at her home, except for one that was made in Arizona by another producer and which she paid for. The models in the videos were paid, Silva said.
Daniel Silver, Silva's New Britain lawyer, said she has done nothing illegal and he has filed motions in Superior Court in Enfield seeking to have the computers returned to her.
"I have some basic First Amendment issues with that search," he said. "No one has been charged with a crime and the material that was seized is not contraband. The material may not be to my taste, but it is permitted."
Silva said the website was her sole source of support and the seizure of her computers has put her out of business. Although the website was still up Thursday, she said it cannot be modified until she gets her equipment back. She said she started the business in July 2004.

A year in review?

I've been seeing a number of people do their 'year in reflection'.
It amazes me they can see past their pile of crap to actually see the mirror AND once they do, how can they stand to see what is reflected back?

Oh yeah, I forgot....they are self-deluding. My bad....

My year in review is that it wasn't the worst of times, it wasn't the best of times. I pissed a lot of people off which didn't bother me one wit. Actually, more people needed pissed on rather than pissed off but I don't do toilet sports.

I made new friends, I found out just who were my friends were. I traveled a bit, I had the best times right here at home. It is actually interesting....my friends have very different ideas than I have about some things but we still get along because well....we don't judge the other one. Opinion is stated, debated and life goes on. No one has to agree with me. They simply have to be interesting and not an asshole.....or vice versa. You'd be suprised at how hard people like that are to find....especially within the lifestyle.

I was going to tell you about my weekend, which thanks to someone's mother just ROCKED! Thanks to everyone who was there iffen you see this. The weekend however, is just something I'm going to keep to myself though....though, I think next time I take off somewhere, Jake either comes with me or I get a cat sitter.

Ever see a cat sulk? It ain't pretty.

"Photograph"

There is this song by a band called Nickleback. It's called "Photograph". I imagine a few of you have heard it. Its a cool song.

My god, the memories it conjures up! While I do not remember much of my childhood, I do remember a lot of high school (I believe hell is a mix of junior and senior high school). This song does not remind me of my high school time. It does remind me of a time about 15 yrs ago...and a much closer time of 5 yrs ago.

Those were the best and worst years of my life.

The best parts were hanging around with my friends, listening to music, driving too fast, drinking too much.....and smoking too much of the wacky tobaccy. It was going to the beach just to watch the sun come up with yer best buddies and a special buddy.

I remember going there, at separate times....with 2 special someones. Its amazing how one can remember the sounds, the smells....the indignation when one of them is girl watching....and yer not the girl! But, I also remember the good times when it all seems to come together with the one yer with. It all ends though. Everything has to end.

One of my special someone's is dead though. I remember how I felt. That's all I have to say about that. The other one is still alive and well though. We talk now and then.

Itwasn't all good, it wasn't all bad. I miss my friends though, but value the ones I have now every bit as much.

"Look at this photograph! Everytime I do it makes me laugh........."

What the hell?

They say history is written by the victors.

Well, that sucks. That means we only get that one sided view of it.

The world as we know it has run amuck...amuck, amuck, amuck. There is acts of terrorism all over the world.

And for what? Why are these people hell bent on either converting us all to their religion or wiping us off the face of the earth? I don't 'feel' like a 'great' satan or that my country is a 'great' satan even if it does do things I do not approve of. Why are we considered that? Is the average American a satan? An American child? Is the average Joe Blow a 'great' satan? I don't understand.

I'm tired of hearing "death to Americans, death to America." What have I done to you oh, mr. terrorist?

This war. I don't recall being asked if I wanted to go to war. Why are we fighting a country when all we want is just the few people heading the government there and the terrorist organization?

We got their dictator out...let them rebuilt on their own. Hell. Haven't we've done enough and accomplished so little? No more.

The American people have said loud and long, "get the fuck out of there". You, George W., you work for us....shouldn't you listen?

To my friend over there now, I just want you guys home and safe.